So I missed yesterday, I guess technically I've messed up my NYR's already however, they are supposed to motivate me not harm me so I missed a day but it's ok!I will miss more!It's life, all I can do is my best on the days that I can.
So I just finished four 10 hour shifts and I'm so tired. Four ten hour shifts with toddlers. I am so tired. I am looking forward to reaquainting myself with the bottom of a wine bottle. I'm particualrly bad for not counting alcohol calories but to be perfectly honest I don't care about the calories in it. I spend my life counting calories, worrying about every morsel I put in my mouth, feeling guilty about anything extra that slips in and I am not a big drinker. I drink maybe once every two weeks and when I do I just don't care about the calories. It is the only thing I allow myself guiltfree. I know people have ideas about this but thats their personal opinion and this is mine. I am looking forward to letting loose this evening. Letting loose and binge watching "The Good Wife". Somebody stop me.
Anyway the last two days were fine. Im going for a walk now. I didn't get any exercise yesterday and I'm not over the moon about that but its cool. I was on my feet so much this week I feel like it will be ok!
Two days complete in my diray.
two more days down.
I'm getting batteries for my scales tomorrow so then it will be D-Day. We'll see if I am actually doing well!!
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/queasy
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Thursday, 8 January 2015
Tuesday, 6 January 2015
Who even came up with the idea of New Years resolutions?
Now I am not trying to back out of mine here, far from it, I think I may be one of the few people in the new year who actually set sensible, attainable and most importantly, realistic goals for the New Year.
I haven't failed yet three days in but I haven't had a perfect day either and I have, as I outlined above, set actual attainable goals.
January is hectic enough. Winding down after christmas, and often (especially for me) a lack of money after christmas. Nevermind the fact that most people have had at least a week off and are totally of of gear and need to be rolled down the hill to jump start them (see my clever wordplay there?). And yet this is the week where everyone decides it's time to start fresh. Anyway my point wasn't to come on and complain but to quickly jot down my days wisdoms (ahem ahem, I use this term lightly).
Myself, it's week 1. Back to reality. Two blissful weeks off where my time was sudden a less valuable commodity. Usually I get to the weekend and say "ok we have two days, how much can we fit in?" so two weeks of not having to do anything was bliss. And if anything, and yes I'm going full first world problems here, it is actually harder to go back to work after two weeks off. You are painfully aware of what you're missing. So I'm back with a bang this week with a fifty hour week, and a fifty something hour week next week, hence the rushed posts before I collapse each night. This of course is causing hiccups. We're restocking our fridges after the christmas wipe out, we're flat broke and me being unused to half six starts and ten hour days means the last thing I want to do at night is prepare dinners and lunches for tomorrow. Unfortunately this left me eating waffles and chicken dippers at lunch time and an oreo ball in the morning. For those who have not tried this most glorious of sins, don't once they are eaten you will never be cured. I also had to run from one job to another this evening and I wasn't prepared. Fail to prepare, prepare to fail is blaring in my head right now, but my point is sometimes you just can't. I will have more weeks like this and other weeks will sail by without a hitch. The point is to try and learn damage control. I ate into my exercise today so to speak (I ate back calories I burned working out) but I also worked out. I know its not ideal and my defict was only 200ish calories but it was a deficit. As long as I'm getting them I'm happy. As long as this doesnt happen every day I'm happy.
So I guess what I'm saying is I'm happy. I left the house this morning at seven and got home at seven and I still made myself get up and step out into the torrential rain and walk 2.5km. It's not much but it's fantastic for me. I also had a 400 cal deficit but I baked banana bread for my lunch tomorrow and obviously I had to try it. I admit it was silly on my part but I'm tired and it looked goooood!
On the plus side tomorrow I have both dinner and a healthy banana bread mid morning snack to take with me!
Day 363 down, 362 days to go!
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/queasy
I haven't failed yet three days in but I haven't had a perfect day either and I have, as I outlined above, set actual attainable goals.
January is hectic enough. Winding down after christmas, and often (especially for me) a lack of money after christmas. Nevermind the fact that most people have had at least a week off and are totally of of gear and need to be rolled down the hill to jump start them (see my clever wordplay there?). And yet this is the week where everyone decides it's time to start fresh. Anyway my point wasn't to come on and complain but to quickly jot down my days wisdoms (ahem ahem, I use this term lightly).
Myself, it's week 1. Back to reality. Two blissful weeks off where my time was sudden a less valuable commodity. Usually I get to the weekend and say "ok we have two days, how much can we fit in?" so two weeks of not having to do anything was bliss. And if anything, and yes I'm going full first world problems here, it is actually harder to go back to work after two weeks off. You are painfully aware of what you're missing. So I'm back with a bang this week with a fifty hour week, and a fifty something hour week next week, hence the rushed posts before I collapse each night. This of course is causing hiccups. We're restocking our fridges after the christmas wipe out, we're flat broke and me being unused to half six starts and ten hour days means the last thing I want to do at night is prepare dinners and lunches for tomorrow. Unfortunately this left me eating waffles and chicken dippers at lunch time and an oreo ball in the morning. For those who have not tried this most glorious of sins, don't once they are eaten you will never be cured. I also had to run from one job to another this evening and I wasn't prepared. Fail to prepare, prepare to fail is blaring in my head right now, but my point is sometimes you just can't. I will have more weeks like this and other weeks will sail by without a hitch. The point is to try and learn damage control. I ate into my exercise today so to speak (I ate back calories I burned working out) but I also worked out. I know its not ideal and my defict was only 200ish calories but it was a deficit. As long as I'm getting them I'm happy. As long as this doesnt happen every day I'm happy.
So I guess what I'm saying is I'm happy. I left the house this morning at seven and got home at seven and I still made myself get up and step out into the torrential rain and walk 2.5km. It's not much but it's fantastic for me. I also had a 400 cal deficit but I baked banana bread for my lunch tomorrow and obviously I had to try it. I admit it was silly on my part but I'm tired and it looked goooood!
On the plus side tomorrow I have both dinner and a healthy banana bread mid morning snack to take with me!
Day 363 down, 362 days to go!
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/queasy
Monday, 5 January 2015
Day 2.
Long, long, long day.
I had to stay on two extra hours on my first day back in work and I'm feeling the christmas blues!
Not a great day, some eating happened because I had to stay late in work and wasn't prepared for that (i.e I was hungry but had no food of my own left) but not a terrible day either. I got in 20 minutes of Pilates. I am going to pay for that in the morning. I also got a new job today, another one and this is definitely going to relieve some stresses and stuff thats not conducive to the healthiest lifestyle ever!!
So I'm going to take today as a win. I'll probably try take every day as a win, I'm an optimist but it was a good day considering and I was also back on my feet all day as opposed to at home lazing on the couch as I did quite a lot over christmas!
Day 364 down and won!
363 days to go!
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/queasy
I had to stay on two extra hours on my first day back in work and I'm feeling the christmas blues!
Not a great day, some eating happened because I had to stay late in work and wasn't prepared for that (i.e I was hungry but had no food of my own left) but not a terrible day either. I got in 20 minutes of Pilates. I am going to pay for that in the morning. I also got a new job today, another one and this is definitely going to relieve some stresses and stuff thats not conducive to the healthiest lifestyle ever!!
So I'm going to take today as a win. I'll probably try take every day as a win, I'm an optimist but it was a good day considering and I was also back on my feet all day as opposed to at home lazing on the couch as I did quite a lot over christmas!
Day 364 down and won!
363 days to go!
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/queasy
Sunday, 4 January 2015
Day 1. I think the fit people are on to me.
So this will be short and sweet, I'm back to the daily toil tomorrow and I am turning in ealry to compensate for two weeks of breaking good habits and staying in bed till ten every day.
Today was alamost a disaster.
But I turned it around. Yes I did. (I may be listening to James Morrison right now, I'm getting all soulful!)
I started off great. Up relatively early, healthy brekkie (ish, its the first day after Christmas a completely healthy breakfast would be a shock to the system) some rice cakes for snack time and then an absolutely delicious lunch of spicy stir fried turkey and some sweet potato wedges. Don't worry I'm not going to document my food every single day, there is a point to this. I was doing good. Being resolved. There's definitely strong cravings for choccy after pretty much giving into every craving after Xmas but I was doing it in moderation but then my boyfriend suggested a relaxed evening in for our last day off and things caught up with me.
We sat down and tucked into "The Good Wife" and two eps in my resolve was waning. I was tired and the thought of making something healthful for supper was just so daunting. I was also failing on the first day to get some specifically exercise related activity into my day. Feeling a bit silly and sorry for myself I went over for one pancake, just one of course, with nutella because you can't have pancakes without that.
Fast forward to half eight and I'm sitting on the couch having eaten three, yes three pancakes with Nutella.
The old me would have thought "well, fuck it there's day one gone, we'll start again tomorrow".
I wouldn't have logged my failures, I would have left my diary unfinished and sat there pretending I was actively trying to loose weight. By sitting on a couch scoffing Nutella. So that was a bit of a reality check for me.
Failing three of my four resolutions on day one. Same old me. However something in my head slid oh so gracefully into place and I sat up, entered all my nutella, every last gram (because I weighed it as I binged, cause obviously if you know how much you're eating the calories don't exist, right?) and the three pancakes and then I turned to my boyfriend and told him to get his shoes we were going outside.
So at nine o clock at night we hit off down the road and half an hour later (he's a slower walker than me I would have done it in 25 mins, I swear) we'd done 2.5 km which doesn't seem like much but it was a little success for me. I didn't give up completely because I made some bad choices. I didn't hide from said bad choices and pretend they didn't happen. I owned up to every calorie and I got up and moved.
It's a small but important victory for me. I will sleep comfortably tonight knowing that there one day down of 365.
It may not have been a perfect day but it was a success.
One day down, 364 to go.
p.s just to verify, my diary is viewable here. You'll just have to trust I'm honest. In the end of the day I'm only fooling myself by...ahem ahem...omitting.
Today was alamost a disaster.
But I turned it around. Yes I did. (I may be listening to James Morrison right now, I'm getting all soulful!)
I started off great. Up relatively early, healthy brekkie (ish, its the first day after Christmas a completely healthy breakfast would be a shock to the system) some rice cakes for snack time and then an absolutely delicious lunch of spicy stir fried turkey and some sweet potato wedges. Don't worry I'm not going to document my food every single day, there is a point to this. I was doing good. Being resolved. There's definitely strong cravings for choccy after pretty much giving into every craving after Xmas but I was doing it in moderation but then my boyfriend suggested a relaxed evening in for our last day off and things caught up with me.
We sat down and tucked into "The Good Wife" and two eps in my resolve was waning. I was tired and the thought of making something healthful for supper was just so daunting. I was also failing on the first day to get some specifically exercise related activity into my day. Feeling a bit silly and sorry for myself I went over for one pancake, just one of course, with nutella because you can't have pancakes without that.
Fast forward to half eight and I'm sitting on the couch having eaten three, yes three pancakes with Nutella.
The old me would have thought "well, fuck it there's day one gone, we'll start again tomorrow".
I wouldn't have logged my failures, I would have left my diary unfinished and sat there pretending I was actively trying to loose weight. By sitting on a couch scoffing Nutella. So that was a bit of a reality check for me.
Failing three of my four resolutions on day one. Same old me. However something in my head slid oh so gracefully into place and I sat up, entered all my nutella, every last gram (because I weighed it as I binged, cause obviously if you know how much you're eating the calories don't exist, right?) and the three pancakes and then I turned to my boyfriend and told him to get his shoes we were going outside.
So at nine o clock at night we hit off down the road and half an hour later (he's a slower walker than me I would have done it in 25 mins, I swear) we'd done 2.5 km which doesn't seem like much but it was a little success for me. I didn't give up completely because I made some bad choices. I didn't hide from said bad choices and pretend they didn't happen. I owned up to every calorie and I got up and moved.
It's a small but important victory for me. I will sleep comfortably tonight knowing that there one day down of 365.
It may not have been a perfect day but it was a success.
One day down, 364 to go.
p.s just to verify, my diary is viewable here. You'll just have to trust I'm honest. In the end of the day I'm only fooling myself by...ahem ahem...omitting.
Saturday, 3 January 2015
New Year New Me? Most definitely!
Here we are again.
New Year, New Me. Everyone says it about one thing or the other and most people get to the the 10th of January and give up, but every year a some peoples resolutions stick and I want this year to be my year.
Every year since I can remember my resolution has been too loose weight and every year it doesn't happen I feel like a bit more of a failure. So this year I am resolved (that's what they are for after all right) to make it happen. I am slowly eating away my life. In a few years I'll be in my thirties and I could be looking back saying I won't waste my thirties being six stone overweight now's my time to loose it all. Or I could do it. Really, really do it and hit my thirties and look back and say thank God I didn't waste one more minute of my life being overweight.
I am 24 years old and I will not be 54 years old and still trying to deal with my weight problem.
This is my year. I have gone on too many years already and I am determined to do it.
So my resolution will be shared with the Internet. I will document it every single day.
The good, the bad and the damn ugly things you can expect to hear from me.
I will blog for 365 days in a row and I will document my journey from fat to healthy.
In 365 days I will revisit my resolutions and see how I've done.
And what are these resolutions you may ask?
Well the usual stuff eh?
1. I will get fit.
2. I will eat healthy 80% of the time. (And make reasonably sensible "bad" choices the other 20% of the time.)
3. I will weigh in once every two weeks for the next year.
4. I will log my food and do it honestly on My Fitness Pal every day.
4. I will keep this resolution.
This is my year, and my journey, my turn to be a success story and I am not starting this tomorrow or the next day I am starting it right this minute. I am going to cook a lovely, healthy, meal in a bit and it will be my celebratory meal. It will be the start of the new me.
New Year, New Me. Everyone says it about one thing or the other and most people get to the the 10th of January and give up, but every year a some peoples resolutions stick and I want this year to be my year.
Every year since I can remember my resolution has been too loose weight and every year it doesn't happen I feel like a bit more of a failure. So this year I am resolved (that's what they are for after all right) to make it happen. I am slowly eating away my life. In a few years I'll be in my thirties and I could be looking back saying I won't waste my thirties being six stone overweight now's my time to loose it all. Or I could do it. Really, really do it and hit my thirties and look back and say thank God I didn't waste one more minute of my life being overweight.
I am 24 years old and I will not be 54 years old and still trying to deal with my weight problem.
This is my year. I have gone on too many years already and I am determined to do it.
So my resolution will be shared with the Internet. I will document it every single day.
The good, the bad and the damn ugly things you can expect to hear from me.
I will blog for 365 days in a row and I will document my journey from fat to healthy.
In 365 days I will revisit my resolutions and see how I've done.
And what are these resolutions you may ask?
Well the usual stuff eh?
1. I will get fit.
2. I will eat healthy 80% of the time. (And make reasonably sensible "bad" choices the other 20% of the time.)
3. I will weigh in once every two weeks for the next year.
4. I will log my food and do it honestly on My Fitness Pal every day.
4. I will keep this resolution.
This is my year, and my journey, my turn to be a success story and I am not starting this tomorrow or the next day I am starting it right this minute. I am going to cook a lovely, healthy, meal in a bit and it will be my celebratory meal. It will be the start of the new me.
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