The next thing I'm going to need to focus on is my excercise (huuuuuuhhhhhhhh). I am PUMPPPPED!!
Well I'm trying to be....I used to be very good for getting up and going but when I started the last time the diet worked so well I kind of let the exercise thing slip. It's pretty hard to tell yourself that you need to work out when you're regularly loosing six or seven pounds but thats what was missing from my diet.
My boyfriend said something yesterday about how he was looking forward to seeing me skinny and I said "Ye, me too!" and he said "You were though?" now of course as I am really critical of myself I probably was alot skinnier than I thought at the time but I still saw myself as the same person. Now when I look back at pictures I notice the difference but I didn't then.
And the main reason was that my body might have been smaller but it was no more toned. I wasn't working out so while my body was shrinking it wasn't tightening up any.
So as I mentioned I do love pilates and I just bought Pilates for Dummies and I'm going to pick up a few dvds...I know there are work out videos there online etc but I just find it hard to keep finding the same one and not get distracted by others and therefore I don't stick with them.
Also while I'm obviously happy to have lost several pounds quickly I don't think it's healthy or maintainable so I'm going to up my servings by one again and just start walking a bit more and doing my pilates and aim for two pounds a week!
And I am going to say goodbye to this booty forever...well not all of it!
Paul also said something else to me last night while we were chatting. I was talking about how when I was down to fourteen stone I was still taking size 16 jeans because I've got a rather sizeable derriere and that that was why I wanted to focus on exercise so that my body shape would change as well as my body size. Then he turned around and said "I think around that weight would be perfect for you" and I was shocked. I always had in my head about how guys want this tiny little stick thin girl etc. and while that wouldn't influence my decisions and stuff I assumed Paul was a verified member of the "Thigh Gap club". Now personally at 5ft 10 I alwaya felt that if I got down to the recommended weight for my height which is around 12 stone 5 that I would look like a clothes hanger with some skin on it. I am not only tall but I have rather broad sholders and as I said good baby making hips and a big oul booty. I never aimed to get down to 12 stone.
My perfect weight I think would be around 13stone 12 to 14 stone ish. And that's my goal! I've always said if I could get to a size fourteen but be fit and toned and healthy I'd be one happy girl and while Paul would never begrudge me loosing as much as I wanted it was nice to know that he had the same ideal in his head as I did.
I'd like to point out also that Paul has always been supportive of me. He fell in love with me at this size and I believe him when he says he wouldn't care if I didn't change! Now I know there will be cynics out there who go "yeah sure thats what he says" and while yes I'm sure he wouldn't fight against me loosing weight I mean come on if he told me he was going to go workout everyday for the next year I wouldn't say no to the inevitable six pack but I am happy with him as he is. If he never changed I would love him still the same and I know thats how he feels about me too.
Fortunately for him I plan on becoming a better version of myself anyway!
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